I apologize a million times over for this being so late posting! I had thought that I published it Thursday! I’m not sure why it hadn’t posted and I was sick yesterday so I wasn’t on the site all day long!!! Please forgive me, dear friends!
As I sat reading the many words in my old journals, a tidal wave of emotions swept over me.
There were moments when I forgot that I was reading my own words.
At times, I found myself admiring the author.
Other times, I was disappointed in things I had written…wrong thinking that riddled the page.
And yet other times, I wanted to climb into a silver DeLorean and head back in time. I’d put my arm around my thirty-something self and assure myself that everything would work out fine in a situation that tore at my heart.
There were certain entries that uncovered old hurts that were laying dormant in my soul.
It became crystal clear as I read that I had spent almost two years in a state of spiritual back-sliding. Throughout the month of January, I’ll share some of the things that God showed me as we walked through the pages of those journals. Things that I suspect you can relate to and possible share in the comment section.
The word remember appears in the Bible one hundred and sixty-one times. That doesn’t include the number of times that the words remembered, remembrance, do not forget, etc. appear. I believe it is important for us to take time to reflect, to remember.
Hebrews 10:32 says, “Remember those earlier days after you received the light, when you stood your ground in great contest in the face of suffering.”
The poem, “By Your Grace” (see Tuesday, January 5, 2016 post), was such a surprise to me when I read it. I love reading poetry but, I struggle with writing poetry. I’ve taken two poetry writing classes and was enrolled in one when I had written that poem. As I read it, I found myself remembering how unsatisfied I was with it. Simply put, I thought it was horrible!
Now, after almost eleven years since I penned it, I actually like it.
Have you ever found yourself treating yourself much too harshly?
Let’s resolve in this new year to be kinder to ourselves.
Let’s step back away from critical words of self judgement.
Let’s love others as ourselves. Our unique, God breathed, molded by Holy hands self.
Can you relate?
Comment below and share your feelings.
Do you keep a journal?
Comment below and share your thoughts.
I’d love to hear from you!